Thinking...grieving...trying on some healing...

I think of you, Alivia.  Somedays more than others....

I have been been doing some thinking, and some praying, and lots of crying.  But I have come to one conclusion, I am happy for you.  Happy that you will never know of all the sad things in this world.  Never feel the stress or anxiety of life.  I am happy for you.

But I am still sad for me, sad for your daddy, your brothers, your whole family.  We all wanted you more than you know.  We all miss you and love you still.  Mommy and daddy talk of you often.  We talk a lot mostly about your perfect little feet, and how we wished we had more time with you.

I want to thank you.  You have helped make me who I am today.  Thank you for holding on so long, you gave us the gift of getting to know you a little bit.  Something we needed, something we cherish.
We are hopeful that one day we will be blessed with meeting you in person.  I have so much I want to tell you!  So much I want to experience with you. 

I love you baby girl....i always will...
<3
Mommy