November 24th came and went just as quickly as any other day. The month surrounding proved to be as difficult as the day itself. Most of that day was spent in the kitchen, occuping my mind with things less painful to think of.
We spent some time honoring her memory. We enjoyed lovely pink cupcakes and talked about 'baby sista' and how we still love her. I had a couple good cries and gazed longingly at her lovely hand and footprints several times that day.
In the several days past, my focus has really turned to preparing for our new bundle. I still think of Alivia daily, but strangly its a tiny bit less stabbing. If she was here, we would not be waiting to see this little guys face, or dreaming of our 3 muskateers running after each other. I have to be grateful to her in that sense...the sense that she is not here struggling to live and that she is peaceful now. For that i am extremely grateful!
We are fast approaching the arrival of this little guy! We are now 30 weeks along and things are going well. He feels like a sturdy little guy...I think he is going to b our biggest baby yet! If he is anything like his brothers we will be meeting him in 6-8 weeks! We are starting to gear up for our planned homebirth with our AWESOME midwife....birthing kits and supplies are all starting to find their place together. Baby blankets and clothing are all being prepped for him. Cloth diapers are being organized for his tiny little bottom! (he has some dynamite custom newborns from Mo Dia Diapers (modiadiapers.com) that i can not wait to put on his little tushie!!!!)
I still feel like my to do list is a mile long but I am trying to just enjoy every step of the ride <3<3<3
